Thursday, May 21, 2009
Gables living
Have i mentioned how much I am enjoying living in the Gables. It's the poo. No joke. I walk everywhere and when push comes to shove, the gables trolly is quite handy. Last night we checked out "the Yard house". The place was packed with a bunch of people watching the game. Kika and I enjoyed delicious Kirin's on tap (yeah they have like 100 taps) it was yummy. I can't wait to go back. This week has been a tough one but as time has gone by, I have been getting better. He's a schmuck and that's all I have to say about that.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I'm not sorry
And Im not sorry [Im not sorry]
Its human nature [its human nature]
And Im not sorry [Im not sorry]
Im not your bitch dont hang your shit on me [its human nature]
You wouldnt let me say the words I longed to say
You didnt want to see life through my eyes
[express yourself, dont repress yourself]
You tried to shove me back inside your narrow room
And silence me with bitterness and lies
[express yourself, dont repress yourself]
Did I say something wrong?
Oops, I didnt know I couldnt talk about sex
[i musta been crazy]
Did I stay too long?
Oops, I didnt know I couldnt speak my mind
[what was I thinking]
(chorus)
You punished me for telling you my fantasies
Im breakin all the rules I didnt make
[express yourself, dont repress yourself]
You took my words and made a trap for silly fools
You held me down and tried to make me break
[express yourself, dont repress yourself]
Bridge:
Did I say something true?
Oops, I didnt know I couldnt talk about sex
[i musta been crazy]
Did I have a point of view?
Oops, I didnt know I couldnt talk about you
[what was I thinking]
(chorus)
Express yourself, dont repress yourself (repeat twice)
Express yourself, dont repress yourself (repeat twice)
(bridge)
(chorus)
(chorus, with the following spoken substitutions)
[Im not apologizing]
[would it sound better if I were a man? ]
[youre the one with the problem]
[why dont you just deal with it]
(chorus, with the following spoken substitutions)
[would you like me better if I was? ]
[we all feel the same way]
[i have no regrets]
[just look in the mirror]
(chorus, with the following spoken substitutions)
[i dont have to justify anything]
[Im just like you]
[why should I be? ]
[deal with it] Send "Human Nature" Ringtone to Cell Phone
Its human nature [its human nature]
And Im not sorry [Im not sorry]
Im not your bitch dont hang your shit on me [its human nature]
You wouldnt let me say the words I longed to say
You didnt want to see life through my eyes
[express yourself, dont repress yourself]
You tried to shove me back inside your narrow room
And silence me with bitterness and lies
[express yourself, dont repress yourself]
Did I say something wrong?
Oops, I didnt know I couldnt talk about sex
[i musta been crazy]
Did I stay too long?
Oops, I didnt know I couldnt speak my mind
[what was I thinking]
(chorus)
You punished me for telling you my fantasies
Im breakin all the rules I didnt make
[express yourself, dont repress yourself]
You took my words and made a trap for silly fools
You held me down and tried to make me break
[express yourself, dont repress yourself]
Bridge:
Did I say something true?
Oops, I didnt know I couldnt talk about sex
[i musta been crazy]
Did I have a point of view?
Oops, I didnt know I couldnt talk about you
[what was I thinking]
(chorus)
Express yourself, dont repress yourself (repeat twice)
Express yourself, dont repress yourself (repeat twice)
(bridge)
(chorus)
(chorus, with the following spoken substitutions)
[Im not apologizing]
[would it sound better if I were a man? ]
[youre the one with the problem]
[why dont you just deal with it]
(chorus, with the following spoken substitutions)
[would you like me better if I was? ]
[we all feel the same way]
[i have no regrets]
[just look in the mirror]
(chorus, with the following spoken substitutions)
[i dont have to justify anything]
[Im just like you]
[why should I be? ]
[deal with it] Send "Human Nature" Ringtone to Cell Phone
Never stop
Just a small town girl, livin in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south detroit
He took the midnight train goin anywhere
A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on
Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night
Working hard to get my fill,
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin anything to roll the dice,
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on
(chorus)
Dont stop believin
Hold on to the feelin
Streetlight people
She took the midnight train goin anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south detroit
He took the midnight train goin anywhere
A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on
Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night
Working hard to get my fill,
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin anything to roll the dice,
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on
(chorus)
Dont stop believin
Hold on to the feelin
Streetlight people
the climb
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah)
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)
Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah)
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)
Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith
purging
Purging all the sentiment
the feelings
the love.
It has to be the absolute hardest things I have ever done. This has almost impossible. I can't express the anquish and pain my heart has sustained during the process.
There has been a lot of speculation and misinformation.
Basically we were evicted because he failed to his portion of the rent for 3 months. The part that ended us was his lying to me about it. He never told me and 3 months alter I get a phone call from our landlord telling us that she is terminating the lease. I was angry as hell and told him I needed space to figure things out. He moves out on a Monday and for the next two weeks I have to pack, move and clean all the mess. All the while I am firmly convinced that this is just a speed bump, something that we will get over. He moves to away for work and meets aomeone else and decides that we don't work and we're done. I was destroyed. I had held on to the idea of our reconciliation but he didn't see it that way. The mere fact that I kicked him out was enough to decided that we were over.
He tells me he is happy and I have no choice but to believe him. DO I think he's happy? I'm sure he thinks he is. With enough distractions anyone can have a good time. Happiness comes from the inside, strip away the material and inconsequential and then decided if you are happy.
I am not happy right now, but I am on my way. This too shall pass, time heals all wounds, god does not gives that which we cannot handle... I get it.
On the upside I have my own apartment in Coral Gables which I really enjoy. I live close to some of the best friends a person can ask for. I have an amazing job with an even more amazing boss. I am re-taking the LSAT with hopes to finally get into law school in fall of 2010. My future is looking very positive and it's because of me and not anyone else. I will not rely on anyone or anything to fulfill me.
the feelings
the love.
It has to be the absolute hardest things I have ever done. This has almost impossible. I can't express the anquish and pain my heart has sustained during the process.
There has been a lot of speculation and misinformation.
Basically we were evicted because he failed to his portion of the rent for 3 months. The part that ended us was his lying to me about it. He never told me and 3 months alter I get a phone call from our landlord telling us that she is terminating the lease. I was angry as hell and told him I needed space to figure things out. He moves out on a Monday and for the next two weeks I have to pack, move and clean all the mess. All the while I am firmly convinced that this is just a speed bump, something that we will get over. He moves to away for work and meets aomeone else and decides that we don't work and we're done. I was destroyed. I had held on to the idea of our reconciliation but he didn't see it that way. The mere fact that I kicked him out was enough to decided that we were over.
He tells me he is happy and I have no choice but to believe him. DO I think he's happy? I'm sure he thinks he is. With enough distractions anyone can have a good time. Happiness comes from the inside, strip away the material and inconsequential and then decided if you are happy.
I am not happy right now, but I am on my way. This too shall pass, time heals all wounds, god does not gives that which we cannot handle... I get it.
On the upside I have my own apartment in Coral Gables which I really enjoy. I live close to some of the best friends a person can ask for. I have an amazing job with an even more amazing boss. I am re-taking the LSAT with hopes to finally get into law school in fall of 2010. My future is looking very positive and it's because of me and not anyone else. I will not rely on anyone or anything to fulfill me.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
domestic partnership done
paperwork will be filed
the end is here
it's over and of course i'm the one doing everything.
as a goo friend pointed out :He is so fearful of showing an iota of unplesantness that he would rather skirt on the edge of people lives as the entertainment .
must be nice
the end is here
it's over and of course i'm the one doing everything.
as a goo friend pointed out :He is so fearful of showing an iota of unplesantness that he would rather skirt on the edge of people lives as the entertainment .
must be nice
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